Just a little life update for the new year, since I haven’t been around in a while.
Goodness, gracious its 2024. It’s a whole new year. It feels like the year flew by way too fast. It’s been a while since I have sat down at my desk and started writing like this. 2023 was a year for me, lots of ups and downs. Every year is something different for me. This year I defiantly think was a year of learning and growth. Lets do a little recap.
January 2023
At this time I was working at Amazon, barely making enough to pay my bills. I was picking up every ounce of overtime possible. I was miserable. Depressed and stressed, I had let myself settle at a dead end job. One that I absolutely loathed. It was 10 hour shifts overnight Sunday through Wednesday. Working extra Thursday and Friday if possible. I was gone for 13 to 14 hours a day during regular schedule. Which I had done so at so many jobs before but this one just hit different.
Sleeping during the day sucked. And only sleeping four to six hours, so that I would have some time to play with my dogs, eat and pack a lunch was even worse. Sometimes I was so exhausted that I slept until I left for work. The workload in the warehouse was no joke either. I always ended up working in the heavy box department which I enjoyed because it made me feel like I was accomplishing something but my body hated me for it. There were days when I got home from work that I couldn’t lift my arms over my head. I still to this day have shooting pains in my shoulder sometimes. Working at amazon helped me lose about 20lbs which was probably the only good thing that came out of it. By April 2023 I was done. I had hit a wall and was miserable. It was time to look for any job that would get me out of Amazon. I had given that company a year and a half of my life and I wasn’t giving them a day more.
May 2023
I found a job as an “account executive”. The pay scale was a little more than I was making at amazon with higher pay opportunities and frankly it sounded like a great way opportunity. So I quit amazon and took the job. Come to find out what I thought was an office job updating accounts everyday was a door to door sales job selling energy. Fuuuccccckkkkk me.
As soon as I realized what it was I wanted to walk out that door, and go right back to amazon. Unfortunately for me I was so excited to find another job that I didn’t quite amazon the right way. I walked out and never went back. So there was no way I was going to be able to go back to my old job after just not giving any word of quitting. Now, looking back I am really happy I quit the way I did, because I would have went back. I wouldn’t have forced myself to give this other job a chance. At the time I really thought this new job was going to be the worst decision I ever made, but it turns out it wasn’t. It turns out it was one of those learning experiences that I am so grateful for. So I jumped in and gave it my all.
June 2023
One month was all it took to realize that sales wasn’t for me at all. I wasn’t about to tell people some off the wall stuff to get them to buy something. So I did my research on my product and sold people and my friends and family on the best way to get a good bang for your buck, letting them know the actual ins and outs of how it worked. I didn’t get as many sales as the sales associates literally scamming people into signing up but I felt good that I was honest. Learning sales though the actual mindset and development work that you had to do daily to be able to knock on someones door and sell yourself to them is the part I fell in love with.
Everyday was mental work. You really had to go into everyday with love, joy and the readiness to conquer. It was all mindset. You had to train yourself to think positivity and to get rid of all the negative thoughts. It was so much mental work, learning how to work with your mind and not your emotions. The hours were insanely long. The unreliability of income was terrible. Did you have potential to make a lot of money? Yeah, but the company was a mess, there was no set pay scale, the management team was new, and the business aspect just wasn’t perfected yet. And it was door to door sales. At the same time, every morning we worked on development and mindset, every single morning and it was absolutely amazing.
Where the growth happened…
I was working more hours than I worked at amazon, in the office by 7am everyday not home until 9. Going home and doing mindset work and 1on1s with other people in the company. And working 6 days a week, but I didn’t mind it, I loved the development part of my job. “love yourself a little bit more” was something our team was constantly saying to each other. “if you loved yourself a little bit more than you would take better care of your mind, body, health whatever” and it was so true. Although after a few months of not making much money and blowing through your savings trying to be a good sales women does get super old super quick.
I stuck with it for 3 months. Sales and going door to door was something I absolutely despised, but every morning for a few hours we worked on development and I lived for it. For 3 months I learned how to develop myself. I learned the importance of positivity and mindset. Sales is a mental game and they teach you how to work your mind. I learned how to perfect my morning routine to set myself up for success everyday. The amount of things I learned in just 3 months is astonishing. It taught me so much. I honestly believe that everyone should work a sales job right out of school for a few months if they can just to learn development and mindset.
September 2023
In September I hit my end with sales, there was some sketchy stuff going on within the company so I figured it was the time to get out. Not to mention I was so tired of knocking on doors. I found a job bartending at a golf club, which is where I am currently and I absolutely love it. Is it a long term job? Probably not, but it is a job that I enjoy. I don’t have to push a product down anyones throat. And it’s something I have always been pretty good at. Bartending has always been a side job for me so it’s something I don’t mind. I am very thankful for it as well because the money is good and the people are great. It has allowed me to get back onto my feet, start saving again, allowed more time for myself and my family and it makes me very happy. Hopefully soon we will find the place where we belong but until then life is good.
Now its a New Year, and I have grown so much.
On to 2024. New year, new me? haha as cliche as it sounds I really think it is. Because of all of my job changes I have realized that I can always change what I don’t like and I never have to feel stuck anywhere it’s all in the mindset you choose to have. I learned that if you aren’t happy then freaking change it. If you cant make your job better, or your relationship better then go get a new one. Don’t keep trying the same old things hoping they something will change. Changes need to be made in order to live a different life. Did I mention that I also went through a breakup in 2023? I guess I skimmed right past that one lol.
Now I am single and happy. I love my job. I have a great morning routine that helps me accomplish the things I want to get done daily. Reading has become a hobby that I haven’t enjoyed in years. I don’t drink near as much as I used to. Once a month during social outings, or a glass of wine here a there and that’s it. Exercise and health are at the forefront of my day to day life. My priorities have changed. My goals in life have changed, my mindset is different. I am different. I have learned so much this year. And I couldn’t be more thankful and happy to be where I am. It’s going to be a beautiful and fresh new year.
And I am ready to do great things.
Which leads me to here. I have also realized how much I miss writing about my life, my adventures, and all the things I love in-between. Life has changed, and I plan to continue changing. With that means doing this again, maybe not consistently. I’m not sure yet if I am quite ready to jump back into scheduled programming because I want to enjoy it, and love it. I don’t want to burn myself out by trying to be the perfect person on the internet. I want to get back to doing this so I can share with the world the things I have learned, places that should be seen, and how exciting life can be when you decide to live it.
How was your last year? Did you learn or grow in any way? And now to see what the new year has instore for all of us. Let’s see if we can make this year amazing! If you want some inspiration on how to have this fresh new year your best year click on this link. Until next time..
